Plans thwarted by mom

I feel terrible!

I got the boys all excited about going to the PWC bike park this afternoon.

I managed to get the bike rack hitched to the car

Worked out how to hitch the bikes to the bike rack.

Went down the road, with the kids checking out the wobbly bikes rattling around on the bike rack.

Then chickened out before we got to the highway!! Last thing I needed were 2 bikes scratching my car and falling off onto the highway, and the boys weren’t too thrilled with the prospect of the bikes getting destroyed.

 

 

We’ll try again when we get back from Knysna and dad can see if he can hitch them more securely…

So instead, Connor rode up and down the road… and Bradley was a little too cool for that.

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A little wisdom from Bradley

Hey Mom…

You know you’ve done something great if someone younger than you is inspired,

but,

you know you’ve done extraordinary if someone older than you is inspired by you.

That was the start of a conversation in the car a few days ago.

He must be extraordinary then, because he does inspire me.

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It’s been a really difficult 2 weeks

MIL has been staying with us since January, and it’s been a really hard and difficult time for everyone.

Then last week she fell. And it got worse, because now there was no doubt in anyone’s mind that she needed full time nursing care.

On Friday, we finally found a frail care home that was close by, almost affordable, and I knew someone who could give me a good review of the place. It was a chaotic weekend filled with completing forms and talking to people about this move.

On Tuesday this week, I took her to the GP for a checkup on her back and for him to complete the medical questionnaire. The plan was to take her for an assessment with the matron at the home afterwards too. My mom came with me for support, and I’m so glad she was there.

Well, that was the start of one of the most horrific days ever!

The doctor started off refusing to sign the medical form because he felt it was unfair of us to plonk her into a home just because her back was sore. So say I lost it right then, would be an understatement.

I fell apart. Through my tears I told him what we’d been through in the last 6 months, and that she needed full-time nursing care. I can’t do it anymore, and I’m convinced Beauty (my helper) is close to walking out on us.

Then after the Xrays, when we got back into the room, he was like a different person, and clearly had time to think about what he’d said to me, because he was very willing to complete the form.

I suppose, in hindsight, he needed to do it. He needed to have her best interests at heart. But OMW it was the last straw for me.

Then we went to the old age home, and MIL lost it once she realised where we were. But once she got inside, and started talking to them, she calmed down and chatted away, and was quite willing to stay there.

To cut a very long story short, and not wanting to actually talk about the last day and night at all… they were even more horrific and stressful, I can thankfully say that she is now at the home and being cared for properly.

And we have our house and our own space back. And we can all start healing.

Through all this, my parents have been amazing! Having gone through this with their parents, they get what we’re going through, and have been an amazing support to all of us.

The boys went to my parents’ house early this morning, so that they weren’t around for her leaving, it just wasn’t going to be the greatest thing for them to  experience… and this popped up in my Facebook feed 😉

Needless to say, I’m shattered and we all need a holiday. Bring on Knysna!

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So glad to be close to the end of Roaccutane

I haven’t really blogged about this Roaccutane journey I’ve been on. I figured that there’d been so many other bloggers talking about it, that you’d all get mighty bored reading more about it.

However, I’ve had it. It’s time to get this off my chest. This post is a little TMI but hey, someone may be able to relate.

I’ve got 3 weeks left of the 6 month course of 40mg of Roaccutane that I’ve been taking daily. That, and the 2 month long courses of cortisone, that the pharmacist even phoned the dermatologist about because she thought it was a little extreme.

You see, at the ripe old age of 42, I decided that looking like a pimply teenager was no longer ok. I finally decided to do something about the acne that I’d had for most of my life.

I think I’ve experienced the whole spectrum of side-effects, and I cannot wait for…

… my lips to stop peeling, and the area around my lips to stop flaking. Some days it’s so bad that my skin bleeds.

… my nose to stop running continuously and to be able to wake up without a blood nose

… my eyes to stop streaming. My eyes cry for about an hour every morning, and burn if I work at my desk for too long. I look like I’m crying most days, all day, and there’s no point wearing make-up because it’ll just be cried off without a few hours.

… my skin to not be as thin or sensitive. I can only wear one brand of deodorant now, all others I tried gave me eczema. I’ve got wrinkly too and I’m looking my age for the first time ever… because my skin is so dry and dehydrated.

… to go for a wax!! I desperately need an eyebrow wax, but have to wait because my skin will burn

… my hair to stop falling out, and to not get affected by normal hair dyes and shampoos! My hairdresser has to use special dye and shampoo or else my scalp burns like crazy. Oh and my itchy scalp! Drives me batty.

… my body to get back to normal. My cholesterol levels have gone through the roof all of a sudden, and because cholesterol is linked to liver function, and this has now raised one liver reading, it’s possible that this has caused it. This means that I’m now on a cholesterol diet!

… my moods to get back to normal, and my drive to do anything return. Roaccutane has been known to cause depression, trouble with concentration and agitation. Let me tell you about my state of mind… which is possibly caused by this or other things that have gone horribly wrong in the last 6 months in my life. I cannot cope with it all. My business is not going well, but I don’t have the energy to do what I need to do to fix it. I think I know what I need to do, but I cannot bring myself to do it. I’d rather read a book. My MIL staying with us, has virtually sent me over the edge. If it weren’t for the kids and the dogs, I would leave her there on her own to fend for herself, and set up house somewhere else. The kids need more of my time and energy, and they’re getting it because I don’t really have shoots booked, but they really need me more than I’m giving them right now. And lets not talk about other things I do, because that’s not going well either.

The only thing going relatively well is my running, which actually isn’t going well, if you read my last post… I’m also thinking that it may be partly causing the problems I’m having with injuries because Roaccutane can cause joint pain!

3 weeks left.

Just 3 weeks.

If my acne comes back after this, it’s just tough takkie… because I’m not putting myself through this again

This was me before… it’s slightly filtered because the light was bad, but my whole chin was swollen from acne… I do not know why I was so excited about this journey

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My bumpy road to Knysna

If you follow me on Twitter or Facebook, you’d know by now that I’m going to be doing the Knysna half marathon. It’s in just over 2 weeks time! Eek! I’m feeling quite despondent about my running at the moment actually. Just as I recover from one injury, I get another one! For the last […]

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Review : Letibalm and my struggling dry lips

I was sent Letibalm to try out. Now you know that I’m using Roaccutane to clear up my skin right? Well, after 5 months on Roaccutane my lips are taking a beating. They are extremely dry and cracked, and some days they start bleeding too. I’ve tried everything, and I do have a few solutions […]

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Not such a small dog after all

My sister and her husband got Hardy in November last year from a rescue centre. In theory he was a Jack Russell/Beagle kind of a dog. Well, turns out, he’s more of a Whippet/Beagle… etc kind of a dog, and he’s all kinds of awesome! I just LOVE his ears! He flattens them when he […]

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Introducing Max the puppy

Max is my parent’s new puppy… he’s the cutest little 10 week old Jack Russell. He’s adorable, with the sharpest teeth! I just love his one blonde eye lashed eye, and the black eye lashes on the other eye.   On Sunday, we had a big family braai, and Max was the centre of attention… […]

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Buying onesies for boys-to-men

Two years ago I blogged about how awful the idea of onesies was… and now it’s time to eat my words. Not only is that blog post one of my most popular blog post ever on this blog, but this year the boys have wanted me to buy them some! So I went hunting for some, […]

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Having fun at BounceInc in Waterfall

We got invited to the opening of BounceInc. It’s the first trampoline park in Africa, and is in the Waterfall Lifestyle Centre off Woodmead Drive. The kids have been looking forward to it for weeks, and were thrilled to get invited to an event like this! Although it was freezing cold outside last night, the […]

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