You know the post I’ve just written on my photoblog about Connor falling into the duckpond? Well, I actually can’t stop thinking about it.
I’m actually beginning to think Connor has a death wish has guardian angels watching over him constantly. It frightens the living daylights out of me.
I’m beginning to think quite irrationally about the whole thing. You’re probably all going to tell me to stop thinking like this, and that I’m being silly… but this is my blog… and this IS what I’m thinking… so you can read it or just move to the next blog thanks!
My biggest fear since the last incident… when he drank the cleaning liquid or maybe it was when he ran straight into the door and concussed himself or maybe it was when…
…is that he’s going to die when he’s young.
He didn’t exactly get the rosiest start in life with the time he was in NICU and was so very ill, and since then he’s just been seriously (or nearly seriously) hurt so very many times. He’s only 2!!
Imagine he wasn’t able to climb out on Saturday? I didn’t see!! I didn’t hear him!! No-one did!!! He could’ve drowned!!
I can’t exactly wrap him in cotton wool, but I wish he’d be more careful. He scares me 
Comments
Sally
sorry you are having these thoughts, not nice for any mom to feel that way. Being a mother and rational thought might just to 2 mutually exclusive things. Hope he manages to stay out of trouble for a while
Meriel
it is understandable that it will play over and over in your mind. we are mums. we worry. thats who we are and what we do. and when they get older the worry doesn’t stop. you can’t stop the worry and the fear but i would use this to praise him. he did good and you can build in confidence in him that he can handle an emergency. what a gift for a little boy to hear his mum say he did well and he is a hero.
xxxxx
Gina
Oh Jenty! Thank Gd he was able to climb out.
These things happen in a heart beat.
Last week, I was running a bubble bath for Aaron, he was standing next to me and I was kneeling next to the tub. He was trying to get the bubbles and as I reached over to turn off the tap he reached in too far in and fell head first into the tub. I WAS RIGHT THERE! Thank heavens I was, I yanked him out and hugged him so hard. I still think about it all the time, and my tummy drops and my heart stops every time!
Hang in there. He is a very stong boy with a super strong mama!!
Laura
It is scary when you seem to have no control over what they are doing when they are at an age when you should!
Maybe my mother felt like this about my brother? I remember him constantly pushing the limits – falling, jumping, running, hurting etc etc.
((HUGS))
Avril (Mom)
He is a typical two year old! I remember when Elaine burnt her hand with the iron, Doctor told me that he sees more kiddies hurt when they’re two than at any other time. He must just be watched all the time although an accident can happen in a second – make sure he’s out of danger, not far from sight and in ear-shot constantly.
And … pray! Keep those guardian angels around him. Am convinced Carl as them and I pray – even today, as old as he is – that they don’t take a break!!
Veronica
I have no worries about Amy, but Isaac terrifies me. And he’s only 7 months.
If nothing else we can compare grey hair at the end, right? Right?
Shit.
Mary
When we were talking about it yesterday I could see that you were very upset, and I understand. But your mom is right accidents happen. I felt like that when Gerhard fell off the deck on the farm onto a rock, and when my moms tv fell on Frans’s foot and broke his big toe.. (dont even ask), and when the twins ate Rattex that was sooo out of reach we were not sure if rats will get it but the boys did, and when they both fell out their tree house, the one on top of the other and when Wian fell off the deck on the farm, sopping wet! And the thing is we were all there, watching and telling them to be careful. It’s scary, I know.
thejacksonfiles
That is not an irrational fear, I feel it all the time too. Thank goodness he climbed out though.
These little boys of ours hey. So much love for them.
Kathy
My heart goes out to you Jeanette. Ray has a special guardian angel watching over him too. He was and still is at 31 always looking for the ultimate thrill!!! He also had a bad start in life when he was a baby and oh my goodness he is always hurting himself. Just a few years ago he got very badly burnt. He has been fearless since the day he was born. I know the feeling you are feeling and the scenes run through your mind like a steam train and you start to drive yourself crazy. His guardian angel is with him all the time. Try not to blame yourself (its hard I know) you were there even though you did not see it happen wich is such a blessing. Dont be so hard on yourself you are a fantastic mother.
Janet B
Oh dear Jeanette! He’s a character and that’s no lie! He’ll be fine – you’ll see! Just keep you on your toes, that’s all!
JaneW
This seems to be a younger child (boy?) thing. Griffin is also in the wars a lot more than Quinn. He has been to the ER for having his head cut open, has smashed his face (a la Bradley) while riding a bicycle and in his own words has ‘drowned 3 times now’. It is rather nerve wracking!
It sounds like he handled the incident well though and didn’t panic which is VERY GOOD. Focus on that.
Gilz
Its VERY disturbing when this happens to one of your precious little ones. That cold feeling comes over and over again when you just THINK about it (with me anyway). Kaylin has given me my fair share of cold shivers and mild heart attacks with her eating my diet pills, pouring Handy Andy in her hair thinking its shampoo and rubbing it in. She’s bounced clear off a 5 foot trampoline and landed on her face…the list is endless and I dread getting those “calls” from the school to say she’s fallen on her face/head again….
Us Mums have to be tough (for their sake) and I wish I could send her to school with a crash helmet, knee and elbow pads…
Having trouble reading your photoblog…it takes forever to load and makes me machine just hang – thats why I haven’t made any comments lately. Not that I don’t want to but it doesn’t load completely.
Panni
It is hard not to replay situations like that in your head. One always thinks about the “What if’s and “If only’s”. It is in most peoples’ nature. Just glad that he is ok.
boldly benny
Shame, this is very scary. If it helps I was an extremely clumsy child like I’d had stitches about four times by the age of 4. My mom was always a bit worried about me but I really do think I have an angel looking over me – I’ve been in six car accidents and I’ve never been hurt!
Conner is lucky like me – we’ll always have angels looking over us
Wenchy
I feel very similarly about my Liam.. so you make perfect sense to me.