I’ve been thinking a lot about what to do with my photography and other stuff.  I’m getting asked constantly at work and by friends why I’m not doing photography full time yet.

Thing is, I’m not getting any younger, and as I’ve mentioned before, the fact that I’m close to 40 scares the living daylights out of me when I think about even maybe doing photography full time.

The reason, which may be irrational, or may not be irrational… is that I haven’t seen any successful female photographers have a very very long career, and still make a lot of money as they get older.  Male photographers are different.

And to give up my day job which is providing for my pension is very very scary… considering my age and I have 2 kids in Private school.  If I was 10 years younger, I would have stopped working already.

So, apart from deciding that I’ll make a call at the end of winter and see… that’s as far as my definite plans go.  I may want to reduce my hours and still do both… but I haven’t quite decided yet.

Or, I may decide to reduce my photography, and only do weddings, and 1 or 2 family shoots a month… and carry on with my day career.

But whichever way I decide in the end… I can’t carry on doing what I’m doing now.  It’s too much.  It’s not sustainable.