This is Day 17 in the 30 truths for 30 days meme

I seriously think I’m useless at this meme!! I can’t think of one book!!

Possibly because I don’t like non-fiction books

This is Day 14 in the 30 truths for 30 days meme

Seriously, how difficult can this really get?! Not sure why I did this meme anymore :/

I can’t think of one that has let me down. I haven’t had many actually.

The person that has been my hero for my whole life is my dad.  He’s never let me down, even though at times he thinks he has.  He’s one awesome man!

This is Day 11 in the 30 truths for 30 days meme

I don’t take compliments well, I never seem to really believe them… but lately, apart from my photography, I get complimented on my clothes.

Yes clothes, weird hey?!  I get asked where I get my dresses from quite a bit (not so much the shoes anymore at work because I don’t wear sexy heels anymore only flats).

And I have to tell you this story.  Beauty comes to work a few weeks ago, and tells me that she got stopped in the street on her way to work by a random woman that was standing close to our house. She didn’t know this woman at all.

This lady asked Beauty if she knew where I got my dresses from, because she likes them all.  She walks past my house every day on her way to work, and she apparently stops across the road and waits for me to leave the house and get in my car just so she can see what I’m wearing for the day!

How’s that for freaky?!!! I’ve been trying since then to vary the times that I leave the house.

This is Day 10 in the 30 truths for 30 days meme

Yes, I know, 2 today… but I’ve got some catching up to do

Easy answer to this one… NO ONE!

I believe that everyone that comes across your path in your lifetime has a purpose.  There’s a reason they’re there, and they shape your destiny.

This is Day 9 in the 30 truths for 30 days meme

My oath, these questions are hectic…

I could name a few for this one.

I’m SUCH a bad friend, and I’m hopeless with phone calls to find out how you are.  I find it very difficult to even send little emails with questions asking how you’re doing etc.  Thing is, everyone answers OK, or all right, anyway.  It’s only when you see them or read a blog post or have a conversation via skype etc that you actually hear what is going on.  Small talk and me… I hate it!!

As a result though, loads of drifting has happened.  It’s sad I know, but I’ve “lost” many friends over the years.

There are a few that I’d love to be in contact with again… there were 4 of us that were very close at school… I’m not in contact with any of them any more.  I have Lorraine’s phone number, that’s the only one left, but I think I last spoke to her about 2 years ago.Would love to contact Debbie and Lorna again, but I don’t know where to try.  They’re not on Facebook.

I’m in semi contact with my best friend from Primary school though… I found her on Facebook… she lives in Tasmania now.

As for post school… yes there are a few friends… would love to be in contact again.  We didn’t mean to stop talking, life just happened.

Quite sad actually

This is Day 8 in the 30 truths for 30 days meme

Short and sweet answer today… or rather it was, until I started typing and thinking

A few people, but like the other post, it’s been mostly work related.

And if I can’t change it, then I move on eventually.  It sometimes takes me a while though to realise I can’t live like that.

In my personal life… no one that I can remember.  But thinking about it, I think I have a theory about why.

In a work space, you don’t really have THAT much say about who you have to work with, and you tend to be at the mercy of quite a bit.  You don’t always have control, and the level of that lack of control is what pushes me to change jobs etc… when it gets beyond living with… then I need to regain some level of control and I move on.

That’s not the case in your personal life.  You actually do have control.  You can avoid people, and decide that you don’t want anything to do with them.  You’re not forced to be with them.

Yes there are ramifications if you take control, but if you don’t, then you’re contributing to the hell, not helping it.

You’re the only master of your destiny in your personal life.

That’s not an easy statement to live with though, because I have sometimes been at the mercy of someone else’s control issues (I believe that everything has to do with control)… and I have stuck around a little too long for my own good… but hey… that’s ALL my own fault.

This is Day 7 in the 30 truths for 30 days meme

This has to be my husband.

I know, I hardly blog about him (his choice actually, he hates having photos taken of him, and doesn’t really like me talking about him).  This time however, it’s all Lance.

I did actually think about this question for a while.  But I can’t think of anyone else.

It’s because of…

1.  Our relationship

2.  The kids we’ve had together

3.  Even though we are so very different, and he’s such a homebody and doesn’t really do socialising that much (so VERY different to me ) , it works… sometimes a little frustrating for me… but it doesn’t stop me doing anything

4.  I’ve been able to remain quite independant, which I value so much… even though I think it frustrates him a lot at times.

5.  He just supports me with everything I do!

He is the reason why I can do the things I do… and remain half sane.

And I do love him.

Oops missed a day…

This is Day 6 in the 30 truths for 30 days meme

This one is too easy for me… it revolves around death.

I hope I never have to bury one of my sons.  This has been a fear since I was pregnant with them.  It was one thing having so many miscarriages, but I just cannot fathom having to outlive them.

In a similar vein, I hope I never have to leave them without a mother. OK, it’s going to happen one day… but the thought of them being without me while they’re growing up just makes my heart sink.

This is Day 5 in the 30 truths for 30 days meme

Today’s topic is easy peasy!  There are loads of things I hope to do in my life… so I’ll stick to 5

1.  Watch my boys grow up to be successful men

2.  Be at my childrens’ weddings

3.  Get to know any grandchildren that I might have in future.

4.  Publish a photographic book – this one is a new one for me… but I’d love to be able to get people to buy a book of mine… with my art…  not just photos I took for them or of them.   The book doesn’t have to be in a IRL bookshop considering where things are going… but an online book seller of sorts.

5.  In the same vein… have a gallery exhibition of my art.

One day

This is Day 4 of the 30 truths for 30 days meme

I can’t think of anything.  Seriously.

I could say I’m tired and can’t think, but I don’t think that’s quite right.

I seriously can’t think of anything.  Yes, bad things have happened to me.  Yes, I’ve been very hurt by people.  A lot.

However, today, I can’t think of anyone that I haven’t already forgiven. Strange word that anyway… such a big one… yet it’s thrown around a lot.

It’s funny though, thinking about it some more, as I’m writing this post.  The first things I thought about were all about my personal life.  Ther, there’s no forgiveness necessary.  I don’t believe that any of my friends or family or even acqaintances set up to hurt me, so there’s no need to forgiveness, it’s just water under the bridge and you just have to deal with it.

The funny thing is, that thinking about has made me realise that I do need to forgive… but it’s all about my career.

Maybe because there, I feel like I have to constantly prove myself, and have felt like that for more years than I care to count.  It’s about being feeling attacked… which strangely I’m not feeling right now, in the space I’m working in… so all is good… and the other older stuff I just have to deal with. In time.